I have to love you more to cover up this pain but I can’t hold my breath much longer. I can say I love you forever but my life is already over.

I can embrace and accept every reason you can say and convince myself beyond the doubt. You may not perfectly the kind of girl I want, but here I am accepted you from the start willing and waiting for you to grow up.

And after all the things you’ve done, I cried so many times. My eyes are crying, my brain is freezing, my heart is burning, and I don’t know where I am. I just see myself crying and shaking. Thank you for all the memories of love and joy we’ve share. Thank you for I have the best you ever become and those happy moments put smile on my face.

I can be happy loving you, but if you turn away from me, I will tell you again that I will never have to cry because you don’t deserve my tears.

I hate you and then, I love you. It’s like a want to push you off a cliff, and then run to the bottom and catch you.

Same constant feelings
I have a good dreams but it can be bad
And it will defends on each others love
This random kind of dream with same meaning
Making me cry each time in the morning
I wish it is real so that I know
But I hope it isn’t because it hurts.
I am truly aware that I love you
I am trying to add more trust in you.
Dream jumping off the cliff and you will catch
And drowning like, you’re the only person that can make me breathe back.

I will list few stories that my mother told me which gives moral value, guide and wisdom to my life. I learnt that I should not be greedy when my mother tell the story of the greedy black crow. The story of Homer The Owl that makes me courageous and brave. The truth and the lesson from the Bible is the best of all time.

Once you acquire wisdom it will benefits you. Reading book to a child means will not only to help them learn and grow wise; reading books to a child will also make them remember you.

A book is good company – Henry Ward Beecher

Speed Dating Photo Taken by Leah Tabios

I love to see the Speed Dating and Jail Boot, congratulations to the hearts that meets and get to know each other. The common question you can observes is what is your name, are you single, and your locale and the rest is bla blah bla. The conversations sound sweet. I wish to register on Speed Dating but I did not my heart is fully taken.

I see people more on taking photo and saying hi to new friends. I love to hear the mini concert too.

I can remember their face but I cannot recall their name because my name list got scramble. Luckily one did text me, her name is Eden from Cavite and I can clearly remember her face. If I could extend my stay for the long time I will try to participate on each activity. I hope to meet Leah, Aims and Emmylou but I cannot extend my time, I have to go to my bro Mons’ house. I am glad to see my teacher in High School Mr. Cainglet. Kadiwa parin po ba kayo Mr. Cainglet? Thank you for all the friends I meet and nice to meet my old friend.

We can say that This Is Kadiwa is very successful. I am hoping for this kind of event for the next year, and wishfully this event happen every quarter of the year. Thank You This Is Kadiwa.

Thank You for the new friends; I meet new brothers and sister in the Church of Christ that we may love each other. Thank you for the gift, my partner and my love Maria Lourdes Garcia. We’re planning to settle down next year and with your blessing, I am giving thanks for making us together in the service of your Church of Christ.

Thank You for calling my brother Jose Sigasig Macatangay. He influences me the way I appreciate and understand certain things. Thank you for the long life you give to my father and mother, for I thank You for giving me chance to bring them in worshiping You.
I thankful for all the problem and hardship you gave to me. I hope you found me worthy of bearing them that I have put my trust in You. Thank You when You lift me up when you know that I am hopeless, You know in my heart that I have no other way but in Jesus name to You.

I have saved an amount here to bring an offering to you. Please I know it is not enough to pay back the blessing you are giving me. Thank you for I learned to cry, this is great and the best way I know to take away the pain in my heart, and thank You for helping me to handle my emotions. With out your help I am down hopeless and I am here to thank you for giving me hope to stand up. Thank You.

I will take care of all the blessing to give to me; I can feel it coming from You. I will also give it back to glorify your name.

Thank You our almighty God, in Jesus name. Amen.

Love and Material things are common why people get jealous. It is normal to get jealous but dangerous when you cannot control it. Jealous is an energy; it can bring you down and power you up.

We get jealous by love because you think someone can take it away and we get jealous by materials things because we want the things that other have but you don’t.

How to get over your jealous?

Breath the air, I know the feelings of getting nervous and the mixture of bad emotions, just breath the air to survive this. The next step will make you feel better. You have to know why you are being jealous and break it down to understanding. Keep on breathing. Jealousy is really hard to understand while anger and hate will pop up anytime when you can’t understand why. Relax and continue breathing.

You have to visualized good thing to happen but don’t lie to yourself, if it is bad, it is really bad. Be thankful that you can prepare and plan to avoid it.

Good communication can help. Be honest and tell what you feel. Listen and understand on the feedback. Sorry if you get jealous by mistake or intentions, humbly understand and forgive them anyway if you want to get over it.

Trust is the best antidote for jealous but don’t put your trust on that person or materials, instead put your trust on God that what ever may happen you can smile at the end of the day. That person you trust can fail you and those things may never be yours. What you can always have is hope that God will never fail you. Trust God to get over your jealous. You may find your self more loving when you trust God.

When you manage to control you jealous, then it becomes positive energy. It creates harmony in between. You become strong not to lose hope and feel better at the end of the day.

It is more wasted when you pass the exam but didn’t learn or used it in your life living the present. Good for those who experience failure that knows the pain of being left behind. The past will support you to live in the present; you just have to learn from it to use them well. Your past will tell your strength and weakness.

How to live in the present?

Lying to ourselves is more deeply ingrained than lying to others.

Start giving thanks to God for having your days and to live forward enjoying His blessing. Start breathing the air and affirm that you are happy to have your life to live.

Smile and feel it. It is really hard to smile when you feel sad, but keep smiling and eventually you will find yourself happy. Sounds like crazy but try it, it works.

Don’t worry about the past; instead use them to make your day. What you have learned and experienced will help you to deal in the present. It’s your chance to make change and succeed.

Make priority and manage your time. We only have 24 hours per day so make the most of it productive without stress. Know your schedule and avoid delay and you will enjoy the result of having more time.

Express your love and share it as you have more than enough. When you give love then you receive love too.

Forgive specially to those people who ask. Forgiving It is the best way to let go of your grudges. Grudges will stole your happiness in the present, forgive and let go of your grudges.

In the summary: I just want to take note that it’s hard to live in the present when you still live in the past. There are more ways to live in the present. Think positively and you will find it.